Transvestia

of interest to persons like myself. I could hardly wait for it to arrive and the day the big brown en- velope appeared in the mail box I could hardly wait to open it, but did not have the opporuunity to do so for 5 hours. When I did, I could hardly believe my eyes. Yes, you guessed it, it was a copy of our magazine, TRANSVESTIA. That was one of the best days of my life and I have received a great deal of help, happiness and peace of mind from it.

During all this time I had to express my femininity in subtle and devious ways. I would sneak on a girdle and bra when I could. My wife would usually catch me we'd have words, I'd lay low for a bit and then back to the same thing. I wore polish on my toe nails for months and thought I was pretty cute putting it over on her till one night the covers pulled out of the bottom of the bed and my feet stuck out. So off came the polish. After that she would find an excuse every few days to get a look at my feet. I must ad- mit that I never disappointed her though, she always found them neatly polished. This constant battle and the finding and destroying of my things finally began to diminish when it occurred to her that we were making entirely too big a contribution to the girdle and lingerie industry. So she began to leave my things alone. About 5 years ago I decided that I had had enough of men's underwear and would wear lingerie continuously. This I have done every day since. We had some bitter words in the beginning but she finally accepted it. One very hard part of the whole situation is that I can honestly under- stand how she feels. This is not pleasant for me. I know that I am hurting her but I also know that if I dont hurt her it will kill me and this is the dil- emma. She is naturally worried that I will overdo it some way.

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I have also learned to shop openly and have made some very nice friends doing so. The first was in a used clothing store where I went to just look around with nothing special in mind. When the lady came to

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